Each day is too short {Denver, CO: Personal Update}

Happy New Year friends of Rachael {hope} Photography! I know I’m more than a week late, but there it is and I mean it from the bottom of my heart. 2013 was full of dreams set aside, unexpected adventures, and grace upon blessing upon grace. It was not was I expected for myself, my family, or this space here, but at 27, I think maybe I’m finally starting to put less stock in my expectations and more stock in just trying to embrace the twists and turns of life. An intentional living, yet go-with-the-flow type attitude. I’m sure my close friends and family would maybe pick a bone with this statement, because I’m still not very good at going-with-the-flow, but I sure am trying.

It is for this reason I have not been present here, even in the New Year. I definitely expected to be back on my feet, full of plans for my business and family that would be enacted January 1st. That did not happen, to say the least.

For those who’ve been kind enough to ask, Henry is doing GREAT! 8 weeks post-op and he is getting around pretty much like his old self, just with an extra toe! His wound care continues to be a part of our life, which has been an unexpected part of my days, but we are just grateful for our little boy to be feeling like himself again. Next hurtle: potty training…yikes!

As for Drew and I, we will celebrate Drew’s 28th birthday tonight and I’m amazed when I think back to the fact that we started dating at 18! 10 years have flown by and I’m sure there will be many more mushy posts about our 10th year adventures in the coming soon. Hazel and I are 28 weeks along today and couldn’t be happier to welcome trimester 3! She just can’t come soon enough for me, though I’m not wishing away time with just Henry and I either. It’s a curious conundrum that I wish I had more time to think about and process, yet daily life and trying to get back on my feet completely overtakes me every day. It’s like that quote from John Burroughs, “I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read and all the friends I want to see.” Isn’t that the truth?

As for work, I’ve had so many people ask if I’m ‘back,’ and the short answer is, YA…kinda. To be honest, I don’t know myself.

I had big plans for starting the New Year with fresh work on my website, updated blogs, more focus on my birth photography, and an exciting business plan for the New Year. Amazingly, all my time off got filled up and I didn’t get any of these things done. Shocking, isn’t it?

I guess the answer is, that I want to be back, but I have not had the capacity to plan a BIG re-launch of r{h} p as I had hoped for. I guess this goes along with being more flexible about life sometimes. Maybe sometimes we just don’t get the completely fresh starts we’re hoping/planning for, and starting something back up again is a process. It’s a process I’m fully willing to embrace however. I have so many ideas floating in my head for this space AND SO MANY images that need to be shared here. I have a few sessions already on the calendar for the Spring and even two births bookending my due date with Hazel…that should be interesting! A pricing adjustment is in the pipeline…and my big dream is to re-brand this year. (I’m not putting much stock in that dream.) I’m sure Hazel coming, followed by another surgery for Henry, will bring a fresh new set of challenges as well as inspirations this year. I can’t wait to share both here and fully plan to continue to make telling the story of family and babies in the Denver area a part of my life.

So, I suppose that’s the update from here. It’s not as poetic as I had hoped, or as planned out as I’d thought I could find the time for in my head. BUT, it feels good to be back in this space regardless. Thanks for hanging with me friends. More here soon.